Break

I am taking a break here.

Time to recoup from the issues concerning my last post as well as time to finish up my graduate program properly. I find that I'd much rather peruse blogs than write author biographies, a shock, right? :)

Adios all, give me two/three weeks tops. I'll be back.

Disgusted

Why is it that some men think they can put their hands on you whenever they want?

Even if they see that you are wearing a ring, have said no, have pushed their hands away, and have elbowed them in the ribs. Why do they think if it's dark that says yes, sure, why not? I don't fucking get it!

Someone, anyone, please explain.

I haven't been posting much about Toddler G so here she is!

Today is the first day...

...of my last graduate school class!!!

I cannot believe it. The time really has flown by and I am feeling really torn about it. I love school and I love learning but I have not loved this program. My original plan was to get my MFA and once I was accepted at George Mason I thought it was a go. I went out to Virginia with a friend and looked for an apartment, Amelia began her search for a job but then my dad died and I deferred my acceptance. The next semester when my application was reviewed I was turned down. I was heartbroken and pretty pissed. The graduate advisor explained to me that each applicant is reviewed as a group with the other applicants and that my style of writing didn't fit in with this group as well as it had with the previous group of applicants. Defeated I applied to the Kent MLIS program and got in. I wanted so badly to get a masters degree that it didn't really matter what it was in as long as I got one.

So in about 6 weeks, August 22, I graduate from a school that I am not proud to say that I attended and from a program that I don't think very highly of...but hey I did it and it wasn't a breeze.

Updating

As you can see I'm updating my blog. I was tired of the same old template and the same old stuff...so instead of looking into moving my blog I just decided to make it a bit more snazzy.

I am still not finished, obviously because the links to my friends blogs have disappeared but these will all be back up by the end of next week...this is sort of fun!

This cracks me up!

Thanks to BabelBabe for posting it!

Breathing

I'm feeling much better, thank you. The end is near and I cannot wait. I will be finishing up my practicum at Ohioana tomorrow and then it's off to do my 50 hour project and my final Rare Books class and then I am DONE!!!

The time really has flown by and I am quite impressed with myself that I actually finished a two year program in two years, which includes taking one semester off to have a baby! Man, I'm awesome.

Struggling

Right now I am struggling to make it through, keep my head above water, you know all of those things people say when they are having a hard time.

I am pushing myself to finish my internship, which is winding down now but I still have twenty hours to complete...if I don't finish then I don't graduate. I then start my final class, Rare Books, and am looking forward to it except that it is two nights a week for a little over 4 hours...ughhh I won't be home until toddler G is asleep and that is going to make me miserable.

I am officially on the hunt for a job now, which is laughable considering our economy but I'm keeping my eyes and ears open for anything, well almost anything.

Toddler G keeps getting sick, not contagious I have a fever sick but...for instance last week she had a strep like virus and this week she has a horrible ear infection...which is making taking time away to complete an internship, go to class, eat dinner, go to Zumba, or even to sleep much too difficult. I'm sitting here right now and besides having just cried AT MY INTERNSHIP my eyes are burning like I should be sleeping...for days.

I'm concerned that toddler G isn't yet speaking, she sometimes will say Mama but that's pretty much it. I could swear that she has said go but not go exactly sort of gggggggu....that's it and I'm worried. Autism keeps popping up on my radar and I feel sick about it. I'm frustrated about it because I am a reader and a speaker. I spoke early as a child and was able to read well before I started kindergarten. Our donor is also, language oriented, speaking 4 languages and understanding 2 more...PhD is Latin American Literature, etc...so I feel like this is not where a delay should be happening if there is going to be one.

And now we are looking for alternate care for toddler G. She is a handful and I know that but it's really weighing on my mind. Who, where, when, how, all of those questions keep running through my mind. How will we pay for it considering I don't have a job, who will care for her as much as we and her previous sitter did. Will we have to drive across town, I'm willing to do that but how will I know if they are loving and if they give a damn about the kids or are just waiting to get paid each month?

All of these things are pressing in and down on me and I'm not sure how much longer I can do any of this.

A great B&B

Amelia's parents own this bed and breakfast...it's amazing and that macadamia nut french toast...holy mother of god is that good!