The adults in our house are on a diet. I know people say you should say "lifestyle change" but fuck that, we are starving! I've been very good. No coca-cola for four days so far and anyone, ANYONE, who knows me knows that's rough. I feel confident saying that I've had a coke everyday of my life since I was six months old and I'm 33! So yeah, I am craving it but I am not going to give in.
Why you ask are you torturing yourself? We are going to Key West for Christmas, or at least that is the plan as of now. Either way I need to lose weight and move on with my life.
I am looking to make some changes here in the next year or so and this is the first one, wish us luck.
This is the second night in a row that I've told Amelia I was starving and she said she is too. BOOHOO
Friday, May 29, 2009
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Dad's Suck
Today toddler G and I were out playing in the backyard. On one side of us is a gay couple and on the other side is this older straight couple, they have adult children and a couple of grandchildren. Each and every Sunday they have their family over, it's all very sweet and Leave it to Beaver.
While out playing today, toddler G wanted nothing to do with me so she played on her own as I sat nearby keeping an eye on her. My other eye wandered over the fence to see the kids playing with their dad and grandfather. One learning to ride a bike without training wheels while the other turned around over and over again falling to the ground in dizzy ecstasy. The grandfather was so sweet with the one learning to ride a bike, he'd pick him up and dust him off and put him back on with a pat on the head and words of encouragement that he whispered into his ear so that no one else could hear. I am certain he was saying encouraging things to him because the boy was so determined to do it for himself and for his doting grandfather. As I watched them I missed my dad, certainly not for the man that he was but for the man that he could have been for me and for toddler G. In Columbus neither Amelia or I have family and today I was wishing that we did. Wishing that my dad could have been here for her, to slide her down the slide over and over again. Or to roll her new princess kickball back and forth with her in the grass, it's a shame that he chose not to be in my life and died before G was born, not that he would have been involved but the fantasy could have remained, a possibility in my mind. But it's impossible and for that, today, I'm a little sad.
While out playing today, toddler G wanted nothing to do with me so she played on her own as I sat nearby keeping an eye on her. My other eye wandered over the fence to see the kids playing with their dad and grandfather. One learning to ride a bike without training wheels while the other turned around over and over again falling to the ground in dizzy ecstasy. The grandfather was so sweet with the one learning to ride a bike, he'd pick him up and dust him off and put him back on with a pat on the head and words of encouragement that he whispered into his ear so that no one else could hear. I am certain he was saying encouraging things to him because the boy was so determined to do it for himself and for his doting grandfather. As I watched them I missed my dad, certainly not for the man that he was but for the man that he could have been for me and for toddler G. In Columbus neither Amelia or I have family and today I was wishing that we did. Wishing that my dad could have been here for her, to slide her down the slide over and over again. Or to roll her new princess kickball back and forth with her in the grass, it's a shame that he chose not to be in my life and died before G was born, not that he would have been involved but the fantasy could have remained, a possibility in my mind. But it's impossible and for that, today, I'm a little sad.
Friday, May 15, 2009
Life with a Toddler
My sweet baby G is no longer a baby, she is officially toddler G now and it feels great! I cannot believe that we were actually able to keep her alive for an entire year!!! No SIDS, or bathtub drowning, or choking on undercooked food!
She's very sweet and just laughs for the hell of it, sort of like her mama. We are working on teaching her sounds, she can say Moo for the cow sound but when I say Meow for the cat sound she just smiles. My favorite is when I say a dog says Woof Woof and she tries to imitate me but it comes out Ayiyi....so cute!
I must say I have been stressing about the language thing since everyone else's children are talking up a storm. I was so worried that at her one year appointment I sort of convinced the doctor to give her a hearing test ;) Of course toddler G was so squirmy and crying that they could only test one ear and of course that ear was fine.
OK so here is my commitment, I am going to come back to this blog once a week and post something...I promise. I bet it is making my family crazy that I have been slacking!
She's very sweet and just laughs for the hell of it, sort of like her mama. We are working on teaching her sounds, she can say Moo for the cow sound but when I say Meow for the cat sound she just smiles. My favorite is when I say a dog says Woof Woof and she tries to imitate me but it comes out Ayiyi....so cute!
I must say I have been stressing about the language thing since everyone else's children are talking up a storm. I was so worried that at her one year appointment I sort of convinced the doctor to give her a hearing test ;) Of course toddler G was so squirmy and crying that they could only test one ear and of course that ear was fine.
OK so here is my commitment, I am going to come back to this blog once a week and post something...I promise. I bet it is making my family crazy that I have been slacking!
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